The unforgivable sin……wait, what did we do exactly?
So yesterday afternoon, I’m sitting there having coffee with my best friend when I get a text message from G. The text message contained a screen shot from his sister-in-law.
The screen shot said this: “we just found out that you’re going to be attending family camp next week. We registered back in March, but if you’re going to be there then we will cancel.”
My two simultaneous reactions:
- “Like what the actual F***!” (yes I said it. I’m at peace with it. Don’t email me).
G responded back to her with “we’re going. I don’t know what you want me to say.”
Her text back was filled with bitterness and pride and hate and all the stuff that’s been going on for the last 3 years. It knocked G over. And it pissed me off.
His response back was “It’s only you guys who have the hate on for us. It’s not mutual. You are welcome to do whatever you want.”
I am so proud of him.
I don’t get it. I just don’t get it. WHY?! Why does it have to be this way? Like what did we actually do that is so terrible and unforgivable? Was it the fact that G chose divorce over suicide? Was it that I came to his rescue as he did to mine? Was it that he refused to stay under that abusive dysfunctional family framework at the farm for one more hot minute?
I don’t know.
I know the only person I can control is me. I know that I am going to go to camp and hold my head high and have an awesome time with my kiddos and my husband and my friends. Because my family has just as much right to be there as their family.
But this is where I’m stuck.
How is this Christ-like?!
How can you treat someone else that way? How do you actually type out hateful and prideful and cruel words to someone and then actually press send? What right do you have to try and get someone else to not attend a faith based camp just because you don’t want them there?
Where is love? Where is joy? Where is peace? Where is humility and grace and brotherly kindness?
I guess I really shouldn’t be surprised, as these are the very same people who took away G’s livelihood, inheritance, and home, all in the name of Jesus (aka. control). But the fact that they’re still being hurtful and trying to control his life after 3 years totally baffles me.
What drives someone to behave like that? What makes them tick?
I don’t know, guys. I just don’t get it.
Still trying to process this one.